And so there I was again, sitting on my desktop watching my comp screen thinking of silly stuffs and trying to figure out why can't this good old boy go to bed like everyone else does. The longer I lingure around, the more quality (sleep) time I waste thinking and worrying about the unknown (future). Let me see... its 5:05am and I can't get myself to bed...... maybe after writing this blog I probably would...
I need to get back on track with my Life, by thinking about the uncertain in my book is just a waste of precious time..... maybe its the relationship I would certainly love to rectify with my mom would probably seem sufficient... hmm or perhaps a good career path, that would definately put me at ease.... or soul searching for my better half may be the breaking point, well whatever it is...its sure is all of that and none of it if you know what I mean...*sigh*
Talking in abstract form sure is not going to put me into a slumber state, cause whenever I dream, I always see "her" and this figure is utmost terrifying, its like a glimpse of demand, it demands of me almost anything.... it drains my energy and I couldn't recall how long this have had its mental tormenting moments.... don't get me wrong, I do love to sleep...but recently this hasty boar couldn't get some if you know what I mean....
Maybe I should just go get some sleeping pills.... the sentence "Stone by day, warriors by Night" does seem to fit in my this particular chapter. Seriously, at times I just wish I'll sleep forever and dun bother waking up at all.... hehe sure does very tempting doesn't it..? Can't wait..... they say all good things comes to those who waits patiently... or was it all good things comes to "an" end? lol Honestly, this is just too much crap...anyways...I'ma head to bed...my eye lids are getting heavy.... -.-zzZ
I need to get back on track with my Life, by thinking about the uncertain in my book is just a waste of precious time..... maybe its the relationship I would certainly love to rectify with my mom would probably seem sufficient... hmm or perhaps a good career path, that would definately put me at ease.... or soul searching for my better half may be the breaking point, well whatever it is...its sure is all of that and none of it if you know what I mean...*sigh*
Talking in abstract form sure is not going to put me into a slumber state, cause whenever I dream, I always see "her" and this figure is utmost terrifying, its like a glimpse of demand, it demands of me almost anything.... it drains my energy and I couldn't recall how long this have had its mental tormenting moments.... don't get me wrong, I do love to sleep...but recently this hasty boar couldn't get some if you know what I mean....
Maybe I should just go get some sleeping pills.... the sentence "Stone by day, warriors by Night" does seem to fit in my this particular chapter. Seriously, at times I just wish I'll sleep forever and dun bother waking up at all.... hehe sure does very tempting doesn't it..? Can't wait..... they say all good things comes to those who waits patiently... or was it all good things comes to "an" end? lol Honestly, this is just too much crap...anyways...I'ma head to bed...my eye lids are getting heavy.... -.-zzZ
